Today was a busy day… 8:40 til about 7 in class/ office hours … My mind was burnt out way before 7…
I considered not going to Cru Leadership, but today was the birthday of two awesome friends, and I was not going to miss out on the celebration.
After dinner, I just felt like collapsing, but I decided I would stick through the meeting. It went as usual, some sharing, some prayer, and a devotional, but then something strange happened. We read 1st Corinthians 12 about the body of Christ… And If you know me, then you know that building and uniting the body of Christ at Cornell and in the Ivys has been the passion that God has put on my heart since last summer … but as I read, two works rang loudly in my head: jealousy and calling. It is not often that God screams in my head, but in my tiredness, I just wanted to let it go. I didn’t have the energy to think about what this mean. But of course, God being God wasn’t taking “no”. As the room quieted from the last response, I burst out just talking, ranting, but I didn’t even know what I was saying. Afterwards however, while talking to some friends back home, the topics of jealousy and calling came up again. This was no coincidence. God was saying something, and it came back to me again:
GOD USES EACH OF US IN DIFFERENT WAYS. We read the same scripture, but He will say something different to each of us. We will hear the same sermon and get different messages. God doesn’t make us all eyes to see, HE MAKES US ONE BODY of different functions. He calls us all to do different things, and no one of us is more Godly or anointed than another. God isn’t keeping score and neither should we. I shared the testimony of an awesome friend. He went out on Ho Plaza and just preached, just shared his testimony to those listening and those not after feeling that God was calling him to this. My first thought: WOW! I want to do that too, so I prayed, but that wasn’t the calling that I received. God wanted me to pray on behalf of him as an intercessor. I felt robbed of my chance in the spotlight, but that’s just it. It’s not my spotlight, it’s God’s. My role was to pray for him, his role was to preach. Not all of us will be anointed to be pastors, but all of us play a crucial role in God’s kingdom work.
So its quite simple, my response was this:
When He screams out at you, LISTEN! That is what God is calling you to do. Do it, don’t question it, and don’t ask to be someone else. After all, you are who God created you to be. Perfect in his image, and perfect for His work :)